Thursday, March 29, 2012

Full Circle

Today is a good day. We've come full circle.

At this time one year ago, we were waiting on Mr. Benjamin to make March 29th his birthday. I was in epidural bliss, my mother-in-law read her book quietly and Micah patiently paced, sporting his "this is awesome" smirk every time he looked at me. Throughout the day, amidst the oxygen mask, came nurse shift changes. I was thrilled when Elizabeth came in and hugged my neck. I had fallen in love with her little Ellie during the school year, and what a huge blessing to have our conversation about whether or not she would be working the night I went into labor turn into blissful reality. It was roughly 6:30pm when Paul came in after we had determined something had to be wrong when I had been stuck at 5 centimeters all afternoon. Dude was coming out smiling. He was ready to see the world, but couldn't do it on his own. "If you were Chi Chi, I'd tell you to have a c-section." When your doctor says he'd advise his wife one way, you don't argue. You hold your breath and trust that you're going to be in impeccable hands.

Less than 30 minutes later, Benjamin Popejoy Webb made his appearance. "Is he cute?" may have been the dumbest question I've ever asked someone. I mean, really.

It was a spectacular night. I stared; I counted fingers and toes; Eskimo kisses masked the surgery pain and I appropriately melted around that tiny little finger.

It was Heavenly ignorance. It was the calm before the storm.  
It was perfect.

When I say we've come full circle, I mean it. I may have had to learn how to love my child the way he deserves, I may have needed to allow this year to kick me in the butt, but ultimately... full circle, baby. That perfection I clung to never left; it just hid for a little while. And boy, am I glad it decided to bust down the doors and show off.

I have a one year old.  
Do what now? When the heck did that happen?

We're going to celebrate today. Only a mild acknowledgment, though. We'll be celebrating for the next month. Gotta ease into it, ya know.

Ben's an amazing kid. I couldn't be more proud of who he is and I'm so excited to see who he becomes. My grandmother just called to wish him a happy birthday and I think she described him perfectly: "There's just something about that boy. I don't know what it is, but he sure is perfect."

Full circle, baby.

Happy First Birthday, Ben! Your parents and adoring fans 
love you very much!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Best Part

My dearest Ben, 

If I had only known how different life would be. 

If I had only known how your smile would change hearts. 

If I had only seen how beautiful the world is through your almond shaped eyes. 

I never would've cried. 

Mourning wouldn't have been in my vocabulary.

I would've loved you.

Like I love you now. 

The journey would've been on a much smoother road.

But then again...

Maybe the journey is the best part. 

I love you, son. 

Everything about you. 

Including and especially your extra chromosome. 

Happy Designer Genes Day.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012


If you forgot to bust out your telescope last night, you missed this. Star gazing at it's finest.
[Don't worry. Telescopes weren't imperative.]

As Ben and I were driving back from Orlando last night, I watched in amazement as the stars shown brighter than I had ever seen. I was [this] close to pulling over and connecting the dots. I heard on the radio that Jupiter and Venus were visible and, boy, were they ever. 
It's always incredible to think that the God who created such wonders as the planets and constellations cares so much about His creation on Earth. Miraculous to know that if the Earth wasn't positioned so intricately in the line up that we would either melt or freeze to death. 
How anyone could believe that something like that actually just "happened" is beyond me. 
[Please don't argue with me. Thank you.] 

Why were we in Orlando? Duh...

We put our annual passes to good use and ventured into Animal Kingdom. It was fabulous. Packed with Spring Breakers, but still fab. 



Among those Spring Breakers was the Lin family. Have I mention how much I love them? Because I do. A lot.


See how amazing God is? We're not melting and He loves us enough to place people in our lives exactly when we need them. 

That's all. 

Oh wait... So I went to this super cute baby shower last weekend. Seriously. Look at this. 



Ridiculous, right? Bravo, Corinne. And way to be preggo, Erica. 

Okay, that's all now. 

Happy Spring Break! [Remember to wear sunscreen, keep your arms and legs inside the tram and never stop when people are trying to walk. K, thanks.] 

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

What If

I've read a lot of birth stories since Ben was born. They've all been scarily similar from the beginning. "Doctor's said 'I'm sorry, but your son/daughter has Down Syndrome.'" We've all heard those words, been given books and information, cried with our spouses and grieved the loss of a child we weren't expecting. While I'm not diminishing the fact that those emotions are real and need to be dealt with, I've been wondering how things could be different.

What if one word could change a persons realm of thinking. What if your reaction had the power to change theirs. What if we valued life. I've read statistics that say between 80 and 90 percent of parents who receive a prenatal diagnosis of Down Syndrome choose to terminate the pregnancy. I wonder what would've happened if those parents had heard, "Congratulations, your child has been blessed with an extra chromosome!" 
Would they have changed their minds?  
Would it change yours?

My desire is to change minds. To educate. To love. To accept. To kick stereotypes and misconceptions in the butt. 

They say a picture's worth a thousands words...

...What if we just needed one.