I've started half a dozen posts over the past few weeks.
"The events that have taken place today..."
"Political faux pas..."
"I'm not the kind of mother..."
The problem is not writers block or a lack of ideas. The problem is knowing when to fight and when to stand down. I've had a lot on the brain. Too much, maybe. Most would probably start debates and misinterpretations that I just don't think would be worth it. So zip my lip it is.
Last Wednesday I got Benjamin out of bed, stumbled through our morning routine, drove to daycare and dropped him off at his class - - for the last time! Working full time was tough, but it was what the Lord wanted for a while. 2013 started with a job altering text message and an opportunity to keep my Mama/Wife heart intact while still earning money to support our growing family. I'm still overwhelmed and thankful for the way it all fell into place. No way to explain it but Psalm 37:4. Jesus loves me and knew the desire of my heart. Cool, right?
In Ben news, DUDE IS WALKING! With his push toy, anyway. But it's a great start and it's so exciting to watch. If you missed the video, you can check it out on Facebook. There are a multitude of reasons why I'm grateful God gave Ben an extra chromosome. One of them - - I will never ever take milestones for granted. Things like rolling over, crawling, feeding himself, drinking from a sippy cup, turning pages of a book and pushing a toy with wheels are all etched in my memory. Sometimes those milestones brought bittersweet tears because of how beautifully my baby is progressing. I don't mind that he's taking his time in some areas. It means I get to enjoy his babyhood longer than usual and I feel blessed that God chose me to be his Mama.
I'm still learning when to fight and when to stand down; what's important and what's really not. Maybe we all need to figure that out.