Friday, April 12, 2013

Dear Alexis

Dear Alexis,

I can't tell you how many times I've been to the store and held up something pink. Finding out that you are indeed a girl confirmed what I already knew: everything about this pregnancy is different. The physical aspects are the same. I've been blessed with feeling relatively awesome the whole time and actually have enjoyed knowing there's a baby growing in my belly. I know a lot of mama's can't say that due to sickness or other complications, so I'm grateful.
But, even still, this pregnancy is completely different. I'm not worried about your daddy not making it home in time for your birth, I'm not avoiding news broadcasts or looking forward to Skype chats. He's here, live and in person and it's fantastic. Rather than taking my word for it, he's actually felt you move and seen you squirm on the sonogram screen.


I've been thinking a lot about you and what you're going to be like. It's only natural, but my perspective has changed since your brother was born. I made the mistake of putting him in a box. I had such high expectations about what he was going to be like that when he turned out to be different than I expected, it was devastating. So, I'm going into your birth day with a clean slate. I feel ready. God could knock me off my high horse, though, and I'm okay with that too.

Before you enter this crazy life, I want you to know a few things:

1. God is real. God is good. People will try to convince you otherwise, but remember those things.
2. We all make mistakes. Mom and Dad will, too. We'll walk through life as a family and take it one day at a time. Life is good if you choose to see it that way.
3. Your brother needs you and you need your brother. After we chose your name, we found out it means "defender." Ben might need that someday.
4. You are beautiful. You might not always think so, but it's true.
5. Love Jesus more than I do. I once heard a dad say that about his daughter. That's what I want for you.

You are loved, Sister.

Mom

2 comments:

  1. I hope I'm as cute of a momma as you are someday! Also, I LOVE that Alexis will be a "Defender"

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  2. Got me a bit cholked up. This is beautiful!

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