Sorry for the absence lately. Truth is, I'm still trying to navigate whatever this normal is around here. Things are changing constantly. Some are quick, painless changes while others are long and painful. It's hard to know when to write it down for fear that everything I write will be about the long and painful side. So sometimes I just hibernate and try to work it out for myself.
There's a time for everything. Good, bad, ugly and indifferent. Lately, I've teetered somewhere in the middle of those. We've had some good days. We've had some ugly days. We've had some, "I want to give up days" and we've even had some mellow, indifferent days. All of those are okay. Like that lonesome February post said, God is in it all. Even if nobody else is, He is there. That's been a heck of a lesson for me.
People are afraid of what they don't understand. People don't understand my normal. Are we following? It's been a lonely road. Friends, family: two things I used to be good at. Things I used to have. Things that are few and far between most days. Things I need. Things I miss.
There's a time for everything. Even loneliness. Even hurt. Even sickness. Even those hard questions about the future of our family and my children. God's not surprised by any of it. And I'm glad.
As far as the changes happening around here:
Moving to Mayberry is proving to be one of the best decisions we've made. Ben will turn three in just a few weeks (Seriously?) and with that comes the milestone of "graduating" out of ECI and moving on to school. Early Childhood Intervention is a state funded therapy option that Ben has been a part of both here and in Florida. We've been blessed with some of the best therapists in the world, and Ben has made so much progress in all aspects of his development because of these fantastic ladies. Starting school will be a hard change for this mama bear, but a good change for him. We've met with the teachers and therapists who will be a part of this next phase and I couldn't be happier with who God has placed in our lives. Mayberry has been good to us and God's not surprised by that either. Now if I could just get used to this new independence that will accompany my three year old. Phew!
Happy Sunday, friends. Be encouraged knowing God's not surprised with your life just like He's not surprised with mine.
Life's not always easy, but God is always good.